My Little Secret

Why oh why do i ? why can't i make it stop.... it hurts to try an try to make it go away. you say to yourself ts been there for so long. You think why do i still lust over that of which i swore i would never love again but i do , there not like me in anyway. We were friends once but haven't spoke in what seems a century. The pain i feel is heartache for one i do not wish to love but i must.

A Horrible Dream ... Continued

The district officials come with the police and an ambulance, they cuff you up , kids come out of there class and look out the window the bell rings all the kids come out they look and whisper , you come out with cuffs and a police men shoves you in the car. you put your hands to the window as your friends run to the car ..... screams rise as they see the ambulance come out wth the covered body the car drives aways as you cry cause you know you will never see your friends agan .

A Horrible Dream

The voices n your head screams as you slit her throat in the girls bathroom, blood dripping off your hands girls scream as they come in to see puddles of blood of blood and a girl on the floor and you sitting curled up in the corner with the blade n your hand crying she made me do it , I swear but of course you know thats a lie you can't even fake it...

SHE SCREAMS I DID IT!!

Peace & Love

THE NIGHT WAS SWIFT DRIFTING FROM PLACE TO PLACE ... NEVER STOPPING OR SLOWING DOWN SAME SPEED .... YOUR WORLD TURNED ALL ROUND .. WONDERING WHATS GONNA HAPPEN NEXT ... YOU CRAVE AND LUST FOR THAT OF WHAT YOU CAN NOT HAVE ... YOUR VOICES GETS LOUD AS OF YOUR ON LOUD SPEAKER ...... EVERY LIGHT LOOKS BEAUTIFUL ... YOUR SKIN FEELS ALL SOFT .... YOUR HAIR FEELS LIKE A BABIES THE WORLD SEEMS ALL NICE AND WONDERFUL ... NOTHING WILL GO WRONG ... MUSIC MAKES YOU WANNA SING AND DANCE .... YOU START POPPING TO THE BEAT CANT NOTHING STOP YOU SEPT THAT ONE PERSON YOU'VE BEEN EYEING THE WHOLE NIGHT ..... YOU JUST WAIT AND WAIT ...... TILL THAT ONE MOMENT ...

My Crush

When I see you ... my eyes widen with excitement ... you make me smile with just one look .... with that girly giggle in my head... the way we share smirks and gazes makes me want you more... with every day that passes and every hug we share gets deeper and deeper ... i went from liking you to lusting for you ... I crave the day we meet with lustful pleasure.... i will become your fantasy lived and remembered ... =)) you'll see ...

She's Gone I Know...I've Reached The End Of Loves Maze

It's the pain of heartache that makes a person strong .... life has many mazes you have to figure out which way is the best sometimes bringing you to a tearful ending ... you get through one to get to another .... the first love hurts the most .... almost feeling as if your heart has been ripped from your chest everything seems as if its caving in on you .... to brake free of the pain you must move on to the next even more challenging puzzle .... you've matured so much sense those gloomy days .... now is the time to take control of the life you have now free .... a smile lifts from you face and you can see again ... yes you cried and pleaded for them to stay ... now its over and you pushed to the better brighter side of it all ... its like the painting that had only been in dreams .... your enjoying everything and anything....NOW PEACE HAS BROUGHT THE RAINBOW OVER HEAD SHOWING YOU THE WAY TO YOUR FUTURES HAPPINESS <3

Wondering Mind ... Emotional Heart

The way he makes me feel is unexplainable .... I just don't know his voice, smile, kiss its everything to me.....

The emotions from one night showed me the truth of the last few months....

.....the tears and sorrow in his eyes it

creates butterflies in my stomach, just picturing it....

he means so much to me and I now feel I can trust him....

Is this true or has that someone from my past blinded me....

when I talk to the past he makes me remember ever good time we had

telling me how much he still cares, how much he still loves....

but my heart points me to the present my young cutie...

who I can't stop thinking about ..... what is it?

Is it the way he reacts to me the way we click...

I love holding his hand, when he kisses me the pleasure we share

Now the question must be.... is the present in

comparison or better to the past

...will the present give me what I want just by caring or will the past prove his self .... and push

me to fully loving him ....

only the feauture will show

Something About Pain Turns Me On ...

Theres something about blood ... that feeling of bitting down on someones neck ...

a slow warm drip of liquid on your tongue ... its almost arousing ..

the way they look into your eyes as their muscles tighten ....

a low moan rises from their lips ... they grab the back of your hair pulling you closer whispering I WANT YOU.... I NEED YOU.... you slip between there legs

kissing them from head to toe .. you want them to scream your name

in intense pleasure ..... the night never ends as your keep them

cuming throughout the night

Life With Lust & Emotion

What he does to me ... He makes me want him ....

Almost crave him it drives me insane .... The look and feeling ....

A day dream sets behind my eyes .... his lips touching mine.... but then I push him away

I Feel hurt every time ..... I let him in .... then I give in and do it again....

My heart races with intensifying feelings....

I wish I could have him again but ..... He's not ready ...

Life has too much going on everyone knows that ..... Life gets complicated and difficult

I'll be his friend because he needs me and I want to be..... But I will miss him and the times we shared...